January recap

Although I wouldn’t say that I have had a typical January - it’s been pretty goood. For most people January is about resetting, getting a fresh start and working on goals. However, for a while I’ve been treating January like most months - I don’t need to reset, unlearn behaviours, set outlandish goals or put undue pressure on myself. I have been enjoying the slow start to the new year and smelling all of the flowers along the way.

I actually do like setting goals, working on myself and learning new things. But I like to do this throughout the entire year and when I know I am both physically and mentally up to the challenge. I really believe that there is no point in forcing myself to set to-do’s that I know I am going to procrastinate on or completly ignore. It’s just a pointless exercise. Whilst some people may disagree and call me “undisciplined”, I value my mental, physical and spiritual self enough to not care if my practices aren’t seen as “being the best version of myself”. This kind of toxic positivity and productivity is what leads to longer periods of burn out. So if I have to wait a while to start on new goals - so be it. I’d rather wait and be happy than force myself to do something now and feel unmotivated, burnt out and tired.

It used to be hard for me to not jump on the new me, new me bandwagon. But now, I am actually happy with myself. And although I have alot of growing and learning to do - I am proud of the person I am now in this present moment. This present version of me may not be where I want to be, but she is still me and I am really happy she is here.

I think so many elements of life, particularly media, in January try to make us long for another version of ourselves. They want us to desire to look different, feel different and act different. But the version of yourself on January 1st is just as worthy and just as important as who you will be on December 31st.