February Recap

February was kind of a hard month for me. I honestly felt so slow and tired. I don’t know if this was because the month was so short or if it was because of the winter season. The plants are withered, the animals are in hibernation and even the sun isn’t around for alot of the day. I felt my energy lacking, my inspiration non-existent and motivation dwindling.

Some days I even lacked the motivation to do things I usually love like reading, playing games, drawing and exercising. I don’t know if this was my body and mind telling me to slow down and use this time to heal from the never-ending lockdown. Or if I was, in fact, just being incredible lethargic. Looking back, I think it was probably the former. I don’t think I’ve actually really taken the time to acknowledge the difficulties I’ve had since I’ve been in lockdown. This is mainly because I am usually looking for the silver lining, or light at the end of the tunnel. I am by no means unhappy - I am just acknowledging that the past year hasn’t been what I’ve expected and although I’ve coped well, a part of me mourns the year of normal life I have lost.

In comparison to others, this is but a small drop in a ocean of far bigger and far more impactful problems. However, that doesn’t mean that the way I feel is invalid. I need to allow myself to feel these things and to ride out these emotions. After all, nothing good comes from bottling thoughts up.

But now I am looking towards March and Spring which is most definitely on the horizon. I feel happy. I feel hopeful. And I feel that the best is yet to come.