I'm Back But My Blogging Alter-Ego Is Not!

It’s been a while and I actually don’t have an excuse for it this time. This time I’m just going to be honest and say that I haven’t felt inspired, motivated or even excited to write on my blog. It’s not because I didn’t love my blog for the past few months - it’s just that I’ve been in a kind of creative slump. And you know what? That is completely okay. A few years ago I would have seen this break in blogging as a failure.

I’ve failed. I’m a bad blogger. Why am I not as dedicated as every other blogger on my feed? Why am I not motivated? Do I lack passion? Am I boring? And insert more annoying thoughts in my head here.

The only difference now is that I know I’m not like every other blogger on my feed because not every other blogger is like me. We’re all individuals and I felt for a while that I was loosing myself to the perfect blogger aesthetic. The more I blogged - the more I wanted to sacrifice my true self to become the ideal “blogger”. If you’ve been part of the blogosphere for a while you’ll know what I mean: the perfect brows, the silky straight hair, the designer handbags, the small petite frame and of course, the crisp clean house that looks like it was designed by Nordic cherubs.But that has never been and will never be me.

At 25 years old, I’ve finally found the confidence to say screw that! This is me and I’m not going to try and fit myself into a mould that I will never fit. Not only is it exhausting - it’s stripping away who I am and stunting my creativity. And I’m actually starting to really love who I am - mind, body, soul and all the cliches that come along with it.

So let’s start again - being completely and authentically me this time. Hi, I’m Poppy May and while I do love dressing cute and doing my makeup I also like doing very “unaesthetic” things like going on long sweaty hikes, pumping some iron in the gym, eating greasy burgers, dancing to sassy numbers and listening to a mixture of country, metal and pop as I do it. I’m not super into interior design, collecting high-fashion magazines, curating motivational art in my spare room or buying fresh flowers to place on my mantle. But I am into animal rights, alternative fashion, cooking a hearty meal from scratch, travelling the world and having a drink with my pals. I don’t hang out at stunning restaurants or boutique stores - instead I head off to castle ruins and the beach. This is who I am and I’m finally excited to bring the real me to my blog again!

This blog is finally going to be a place where I can be myself again - get back to basics and write down all my thoughts about being a married twenty-something in London, who is still massively into fashion, beauty and travel but not-so into doing it the way that bloggers should.